Wow, I am sorry to hear of your get-off, and send my best wishes for a speedy and complete recovery. I had noticed your absence from this Forum.
I can understand your feelings, having ridden since the age of 6, and having had streetbikes since the age of 16. Ride a Motorcycle long enough, and you will experience some pain. Fortunately, my mishaps thus far haven't been severely life altering or ending. I know several people who are no longer with us, because of a mistake made while riding, and several more who are here, but minus limbs, because of other inattentive drivers.
My Sister crashed her bike on May 21 of last year. She severely broke her leg, and her bike was totaled. She was riding by herself, fortunately on a scenic byway that gets a fair amount of traffic. Because the first people to arrive on the scene were two ER Trauma Nurses from Duke University, who were on vacation at the time. Their skill undoubtedly saved her from even more serious consequences. She is just now (almost 10 months later) starting to walk gingerly in Physical Therapy. She shouldn't ride, as I keep telling her, because she has never paid enough attention to her surroundings. She acknowledges her lack of attentiveness, but she is still pressuring me to take her to look for a new Motorcycle. I am not anxious to do so.
If there's a silver lining, it's that you didn't seem overly pleased with your newer model bike's power characteristics, or the vibration it had. So at least that's no longer a concern. (Just trying to cheer you up, and maybe illicit a chuckle).
Again, all the best in your recovery and whatever you decide as far as riding.